Apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah..
Im still young =) nak sedapkan hati
There are so many doors to be opened, and I'm not afraid to look behind them. At the moment I felt more adventures than ever.
I am really grateful that I am blessed enough to understand and embrace this. I do understand that it’s not easy to do good things. Considering that negativity act seem to provide more pleasure and fun.
Mostly like sugar and cigarette: people told you that it’s bad for your health but you just can’t be able to leave it alone. However in the long run, the consequence is still there.. Depending on the impact size.. Some lucky people might be able to escape but not all.
This is a metaphor of my situation. Honestly speaking, I really have my heart torn out when I try to take the first step. By facing forward and sometime with tears, I move step by step.. Trying to look forward and act strong.
At night, I remind myself that I am a tough cookie and I will be able to get trough anything =)
Mar 16, 2011
now, tgh happy sangat..
after all of the dramatic feeling.. now i feel great!
ade good news =) yippie! ni tgh on the way.. da betul real nanti baru ily update hhuhuhu
at the moment berangan dlu =)
Mar 15, 2011
this past few weeks, I dont feel happy... I felt strangled.. I literally choking...
I taught that I supposed to be happy and but i just dont feel right.. i felt like something stuck in my heart and i felt like someone stab me in the gut..
I tried to please others by trying to act "like they told me" and trying my best to adapt...
But inside i felt like screaming... This is not me, I don't feel happy..
i feel sloppy.. I feel like im down grading my self.. I feel like i have no say in anything i wear and how i supposed to act and what to say..
basically, i drowning..
is this just a phase?
will i be able to be normal again?
will i ever be me again?
Am i not grateful?
Should I just break free and accept the consequence and please my heart?
or should I suffer in silence, and be 'so called' secure?
Mar 3, 2011
4 hari ily di Akmal, akhirnya habis.. ingatkan tak best..rupenyer seronok sangat =)
macam2 new information yang ily dapat.. ramai kawan2 baru =)
nanti ade mase ily update pasal pengalaman ily di sana =)
isnin ni ily nak kene lapor diri kat kelana jaya =)
harap2 semua berjalan lancar Amin!
bersyukur atas nikmat yang tuhan kurniakan.. rezeki murah sangat tahun ni =)