Shut up or Break away?
this past few weeks, I dont feel happy... I felt strangled.. I literally choking...
I taught that I supposed to be happy and but i just dont feel right.. i felt like something stuck in my heart and i felt like someone stab me in the gut..
I tried to please others by trying to act "like they told me" and trying my best to adapt...
But inside i felt like screaming... This is not me, I don't feel happy..
i feel sloppy.. I feel like im down grading my self.. I feel like i have no say in anything i wear and how i supposed to act and what to say..
basically, i drowning..
is this just a phase?
will i be able to be normal again?
will i ever be me again?
Am i not grateful?
Should I just break free and accept the consequence and please my heart?
or should I suffer in silence, and be 'so called' secure?