Being a new mother
Hope life is treating you well.. I am currently approaching my first month being a new mom.. it have been such a surprising yet very warm journey. I still remembered the time when my hubby and I go for prenatal consultation and check up. It felt like yesterday that I got to see my baby only via the screen.Now, to be able to hold her in my arm, to care for her, to soothe her, to “sayang2” her… it is just surreal for me.
There are times that I missed being pregnant. I miss those big belly, I miss walking like a penguin (hahahah) I miss carrying baby Sofea around in my tummy and lots of other things about being pregnant.. I am humble thankful to Allah for blessing me with a chance to felt this amount of happiness.
Oh ya, we went for maternity photoshot at Taman TTDI right after The Butterfly Walk event. Thank you to Nala for doing my make up,arranging the whole shoot as well as for engaging Vitri to snap on that day. Tammy and Ayna were also around during the session. All of us having fun snapping and try not to be scared of the naughty monkeys there. hahaha..
So how was my first month being a mum like? Like I said earlier.. surprising! At first, I didnt know that my body able to tolerate 23 hours of contraction pain. Surprising huh? Then, I never knew that my hubby will join me in the labour and operation room. I wonder how does it felt seeing a person you love being cut open in front of you while you are sober. To my hubby, thank you for being there. (Due to the drug given to me before the operation started, I end up drowsy.. so when my hubby came with covered face and those plastic green outfit, I didnt know it was him and in my mind I was like “ wah bagus hospital ni, bole assigned nurse datang duduk tepi peganng tangan bagi semangat..” then when he start to talk to me.. I am surprised it was him all the time that have been holding my hand. Apa punya blur la ini illy.
Then my confinement started. I have been using 2 sets for berpantang, the first is the set bersalin afiat and the next is the set bersalin from tanamera. I will share the review of each sets soon.
During my confinement, all I did was taking care of my body so that it heals faster, then eat confinement food (you can check it out..I shared most of my daily meal on my insta/fan page) pump milk for baby, feeding her and loving her.
The first week was really awkward. Yes, I cant find other word to describe my feeling. I am still overwhelm with the fact that I am now a mother. Then slowly still recovering from my c-sec, I am still learning how to hold a baby properly. Before Baby Sofea arrive, I have been doing lots and lots of reading on how to care for your newborn, how to feed (up till the amount of milk needed per day), how to calm a baby when she cry.. plus many more tips you name it..
The thing is I never had any practical. When Baby Sofea arrived, she do not come with a manual. I tried my best to recall what I have read and studied earlier.. but when she scream, I instantly forgot everything. BLUR and panic. at time I felt upset when it takes sometime to calm her down T.T felt like a useless mother. I wanted to help her out but I cant understand her yet.. so it is communication breakdown. Surprising I learn to adapt and to learn more about her. All you need to do when your baby cry is to 3 main thing a) hungry or not? 2) hows the diapers? 3) maybe she have wind so put minyak and try to console her..
After few days, I am able to catch up with her trend. I know which interval that she going to wake up, how does she move when her tummy upset her.. and when she need a hug. She love to be hug!! so cute haha
I gain lots n lots of kg during my confinement, I got some scars from my pupp, stretch mark, pigmentation.. you name it. At first I felt sad looking at my scars especially my tummy part.It isn't very pretty anymore. Some may even think it's ugly. That's OK. It was your home. It's where I first grew to love you, where I lay my hand as I dreamed about who you were and who you would be. It held you until my arms could, and for that, I will always find something beautiful in it.
All those sleepless nights, sakit kena c-sec and bau masam muntah budak kecik felt nothing when I saw my hubby slept after spending time staring and adoring his daughter. To me it is a very heart warming scene. I am forever grateful.
Thank you for spending your time reading my post. I am still learning on how to be the best mom I ever could, going to share more when time permit. Hopefully you will find it somehow helpful.