Special Post for My Daughter
Assalamualaikum and Olla everyone!
Harini my post is extra special it is actually a post for my daughter. I hope that one day when she grow up she will be able to read this. Hopefully this blog will still be on the internet by then hahaha.. so, kalau korang tak nak baca bole skip and visit my blog tomorrow instead. Sebab today I nak jiwang skit.
How are you? This is so awkward but I am still doing it anyway. Well, this is mummy here. I am writing this when you are at 1 year and 6 months and I have no idea when will you be reading this then again I just want to get the message across regardless.
I want you to know that I love you a lot like seriously a lot. In fact, I have no idea that I could love a tiny human being this much. I am sorry that I could not be with you 24/7 and you have no idea how much I wanted too.
I am sorry that I am always busy, tried my very best to give you as much quality time by bringing you to jalan2 and try out new things. I should have done more.
I am sorry for any mistake that I have done in raising you up. I have tried my very best in the way that I know how. Honestly, I have no idea on how to be a good parent as this is my first time trying to be one.
But what I do know is that I am going to protect you as you will always be my baby. Growing up, I have no idea how the family institution work as I can’t recall having both mum and dad living together. As you know that tok ayah and tok wan spilt up when I was 3 years old. Things happen, tiada jodoh nak buat macam mana kan?
What eva it is, kita kena percaya ketentuan Tuhan dan Allah is the best planner. Setiap yang berlaku tu mesti ada hikmah. Tengok sekarang ada pak ngah hafiz, mak teh, ada ayahde, ayah su, ada mak su tiha dan pakcik azim. Kan best? The more the merrier! Hehe Dorang semua pun sayang Sofea banyak sangat. Best la kau kan? Hahaha
Mummy harap bile sofea dah besar, please jaga diri jaga maruah jadi insan yang berguna dan bantu seramai orang yangg Sofea mampu. I know there is a bright light inside of you that it waiting to shine out to the world.
Sometime, in life you will bump into huddles meet not so nice people and things might not just go your way. During those moment.. Please remember mummy love you and I prayed to Allah to protect you and to guide you. Just be yourself, give out as much kindness to the world and be positive. Do not let anybody or any situation to make you felt that you are not worth it. Because you deserved all the happiness and joy in this world. If it all does not work, just joke about it as tomorrow will be a new day!
Last talian hayat, call mummy pastu I will hunt the person down LOL okay itu if mummy still hidup la, if mummy dah takde masa tu.. Don’t worry my love does not stop and have no expiry date. My soul will continue to pray for you.
Okay tu jer la mummy nak citer kali ni. Yang lain mummy sambung tulis dalam our journal k
*This is a personal post. I am not paid to write this.